Tonight I had my last final. And man, have I bombed this semester. I mean, it’s been been awful all around. Actually this year has been pretty awful. It wasn’t all bad, some really good things have happened.

It’s just that I had imagined how my life would be by the end of this semester and now its december and i’ve realized that nothing worked out the way I had hoped. 

And hell, i’ve been imagining how my life would be when I turned 21 for a long time, and now it’s almost two weeks away and the reality has been sinking in.

I’ve lost almost all ties with my old friends from back home. And it’s starting to become clear that the same thing is happening with the few friends I actually had here.

Maybe i’m just sad because I thought I could have done more with myself by now.

This feels like such a self indulgent, depressive little post. And I salute all two of you who might actually read it. Don’t worry, i’m not going to resign myself to wallowing. This is just the point in my life where I acknowledge that i’m unhappy with how things have been going and I decide it’s time to change. 

I hope it wasn’t totally incoherent, my only defense is that it’s five am and the sleeping pills I took made me loopy. 

Anyway, goodnight internet. Hope everything works out for you. 

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